Mommy is still looking for a job. There is some hope here and there but no actual result. Of course, with my personality, I always expect of worst of the worst. I try to plan out my cash flow, so that I don't spend recklessly. But the more I plan the more I worry. I can get a migraine just from thinking about it. I am scared that what I fear most will happen. Mom said ... people (aunties) seem to be avoiding us because we're like a chunk of debt. We are nothing but debt. I never ever wanted to borrow money from anybody. But gosh ... this is the only choice that we have. I am trying hard ... trying hard to hold my mind together.... what to do .. what to do...