From now on, I vow to forget that image of what I thought "family " means to me. Though I feel very bad for my mom, I do not know how to help. I know if it hurts me this bad,it hurts me a thousand times more.

What does this word "family" mean that many people fond of most? As with me, I feel so empty when such thing is mentioned. What I've once thought that I had is what I now lack the most. It's not about who you refer to as relatives, but who in this world can you trust that you at least won't be judged for any reason under any condition.

In every fight, someone must get hurt, sometime both, more or less. People fight because people want to win - that power that they urge to have while watching your opponent desperately crying for help. But how do you feel when such power is contributed by the one that you believe to be holding some type of DNA that you are carrying in your very own blood, cells, you name them scientists - no matter how hard you tell yourself to deny the fact.

It hurts, it hurts really bad. It hurts a million times more for my mom.

Building a new concept for family won't be busy but I will try. Where must I go for a place to rant my frustration but you Blogger? I just want to release and clear out my thought, wishing everything was just like what I imagine. Ba noi, mai mot lon, ba mua cho con bo rau muon dem ra cho ban. How such simple dreams made me so happy? Why can't I ever be like that again? Never never.... Because time machine does not go backward! Oh, what a lonely me when it seems like I have everything that I should have.